It's difficult.. to speak about love

because sometimes we are afraid, well I am. I think she is too. She doesn't like when people ask how long it's been, or how we met. It's bad luck!

She wants us to be "complete"! I'm welling! She's so loving. I love what she does to me.. sometimes I get in my own way of coming to terms...sometimes I'm my own worse enemy.. but we'll muddle through I suppose. All I know is that I love what she does to me. I miss her and it's only been one day. I can't wait to see her again..to sleep with her.

So, I'm thanking the universe for my gift. Yes, Edy and Georgetta and Ezekiel and I'm sure Emma came through. We do get what we want and what we need.. if we ask. If we plan it. Personally, I begged and demanded!

I thank the universe for my love, loves and lover. I am grateful for my many blessings, gifts, and magical days, wonderful days. Now, I ask the universe to allow me to step out of the way of myself.. out of the way of my troubled, abused past into the present...into me, into her, into us.

Complete! I'll try very hard. Please help me. Please be there for me. Please help me to speak correctly and pronounce correctly and think before I speak. Please hold my eagerness, impatience, my laser temper. Please give me that sense of calm and cool and brilliance and eloquent speech, thoughts and vocabulary. And youthfulness, agility, flexibly, power, strength, intelligent, quickness of wit and pace. Help me impress her and myself. I've learned from the past. help me put it into practice.
And remember, I'm under 40! And thanks for that! I'm healthy, wealthy and wise..just as intended for this journey... and youthful! And brilliant! And full of energy! Loved and loving. And please keep all my loves healthy, wealthy and wise. I can't imagine my life without them. Thanks. And please take care of Emma! She's the best! I miss her! I always had time and energy and love for Emma! My protector.. my guard dog spirit!