It's time once again to exercise my fingers and type a bit of grateful praying. I had a fabulous "family" Christmas.. totally gay! Yes!
As I sit here I am viewing Venus from my window. I think it's Venus...probably Mars...men are from Mars, women from Venus....it's Venus! Yes! So I say anyway!
I'm missing her...I've been with her four nights in a roll...I was babysitting a cat earlier when I got home and that actually helped. I miss them both now!
I am grateful for this wonderful holiday season spent with many loving friends. I have much to be grateful for and I am. Great friends, good health, pain free days, pain free activities, peaceful, restful nights. I can sleep on caffeine so I guess it was the energy drinks that had me jumpy during the night. Oh well!
I am so grateful for my safety, my loves, my lover, I wishes being granted, my dreams come true!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
I'm looking forward to speaking with one of
my spirit guides Wednesday.. I hope some things get straightened out for me..
Brr.. it's cold .. I'm tired of winter already.
I'm thanking the universe for all of my many blessings of painful exercise, and working out.. and riding. That's for all of my many blessings, good health, safe times, safe activities. Thanks for it all.
I thank the universe for my youthfulness, my wisdom, my loving heart, the fact that I care about people, I'm grateful for love in my life.. for the closeness. I only wished she loved me too! She could just very well be pushing me away.. further and further...
Brr.. it's cold .. I'm tired of winter already.
I'm thanking the universe for all of my many blessings of painful exercise, and working out.. and riding. That's for all of my many blessings, good health, safe times, safe activities. Thanks for it all.
I thank the universe for my youthfulness, my wisdom, my loving heart, the fact that I care about people, I'm grateful for love in my life.. for the closeness. I only wished she loved me too! She could just very well be pushing me away.. further and further...
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
missing her..
and I just sent her an email...telling her so..
I said I'm sitting here on your floor chair, in your spot, keeping warm burning your wood and missing you. It's all here but you!
I asked if she could come over.. soon for dinner..
It's late and I know she is sleeping now already..we have magic together.
So, yes, I am missing her. I think she'll enjoy my email..
Today was magical too in another way! The temperature outside was 20 degrees with a light freezing rain, but in doors warm and wonderful and bright filled with friends and love. I visited a friend in the hospital, went to a movie with another, spoke with my love, and chatted with another friend and offered to help her get her new iPhone turned up if she has troubles. Oh I forgot to mention.. I walked to my friends' and clear off her car and her two neighbors.
Now, I wish to thank my special spirit guides Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette to ever spiritual presence guide and protects me. I am so grateful! And I'll return favors willingly. I do wish to be more clairvoyant, more intuitive, and enhance my ESP skills. I already dream my day and recreate my own realities....and don't we all? So that is really nothing really very new is it! I'm young, very young! Youthful, brilliant, looked up to, admired. I am most talents and my artiest abilities are endless and even surprising to me because they all come so naturally to me. I just do it!
Never think about .. not be able to do something.. just do it! You know like Nike says.."Just Do It!"
I ran a 5k on Sunday morning.. and today and yesterday.. nothing.. so I must do it all tomorrow.. swim, bike, run on the treadmill..all inside because tomorrow will be another nasty, wintry day.
So, I thank the universe..I and two other friends have appointments next week to visit with Ezekiel..as he is channeled. It's been over a year.. I knew I would get the appointments.. I felt it! Life is because I have heavenly spirits watching over me and guiding me along the way. I wonder who that moth is, that is flying around my condo? I also hate to go after it. I wonder when he got in here...late summer? Fall? And where's he been hiding.. and is he one of my spirit guides.. coming to get a better look? He flew right over me.. earlier I saw him near the over-the-counter kitchen light. I guess he's been there all day..that is.. until I turned on more lights after it got dark out.
I love my friends and I feel very blessed to have so many..such wonderful talented, smart, warm, fun, good people.
I'm getting tired now..ready for bed so I can get up early to finish a sculpturing project I am working on which will be a gift.. so I need to hustle.. I think I've sculptured enough with files and now I need to begin using sandpapers to smooth into a shine.. can't wait.
I hope I get to the gym tomorrow...already promised my friend I would run a few errands with her tomorrow morning. And want to visit my friend who is in the hospital!
Well, between sculpturing and holding my sax while I play.. my right thumb is getting a work out.. hurts. Hey, it's not that bad! I just need to rest it a bit! Today I didn't get a chance to play.. my neighbors were home..and I wasn't home much either. I make sure my neighbors are not home but gone before I play my sax..
This laptop is getting hot on my lap..oh well, my fire is going out ..time for bed! Tomorrow's will be another magical day filled with good healthy food, good friends, love, art, my love.. I miss her but will see her very soon! Very soon!
I said I'm sitting here on your floor chair, in your spot, keeping warm burning your wood and missing you. It's all here but you!
I asked if she could come over.. soon for dinner..
It's late and I know she is sleeping now already..we have magic together.
So, yes, I am missing her. I think she'll enjoy my email..
Today was magical too in another way! The temperature outside was 20 degrees with a light freezing rain, but in doors warm and wonderful and bright filled with friends and love. I visited a friend in the hospital, went to a movie with another, spoke with my love, and chatted with another friend and offered to help her get her new iPhone turned up if she has troubles. Oh I forgot to mention.. I walked to my friends' and clear off her car and her two neighbors.
Now, I wish to thank my special spirit guides Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette to ever spiritual presence guide and protects me. I am so grateful! And I'll return favors willingly. I do wish to be more clairvoyant, more intuitive, and enhance my ESP skills. I already dream my day and recreate my own realities....and don't we all? So that is really nothing really very new is it! I'm young, very young! Youthful, brilliant, looked up to, admired. I am most talents and my artiest abilities are endless and even surprising to me because they all come so naturally to me. I just do it!
Never think about .. not be able to do something.. just do it! You know like Nike says.."Just Do It!"
I ran a 5k on Sunday morning.. and today and yesterday.. nothing.. so I must do it all tomorrow.. swim, bike, run on the treadmill..all inside because tomorrow will be another nasty, wintry day.
So, I thank the universe..I and two other friends have appointments next week to visit with Ezekiel..as he is channeled. It's been over a year.. I knew I would get the appointments.. I felt it! Life is because I have heavenly spirits watching over me and guiding me along the way. I wonder who that moth is, that is flying around my condo? I also hate to go after it. I wonder when he got in here...late summer? Fall? And where's he been hiding.. and is he one of my spirit guides.. coming to get a better look? He flew right over me.. earlier I saw him near the over-the-counter kitchen light. I guess he's been there all day..that is.. until I turned on more lights after it got dark out.
I love my friends and I feel very blessed to have so many..such wonderful talented, smart, warm, fun, good people.
I'm getting tired now..ready for bed so I can get up early to finish a sculpturing project I am working on which will be a gift.. so I need to hustle.. I think I've sculptured enough with files and now I need to begin using sandpapers to smooth into a shine.. can't wait.
I hope I get to the gym tomorrow...already promised my friend I would run a few errands with her tomorrow morning. And want to visit my friend who is in the hospital!
Well, between sculpturing and holding my sax while I play.. my right thumb is getting a work out.. hurts. Hey, it's not that bad! I just need to rest it a bit! Today I didn't get a chance to play.. my neighbors were home..and I wasn't home much either. I make sure my neighbors are not home but gone before I play my sax..
This laptop is getting hot on my lap..oh well, my fire is going out ..time for bed! Tomorrow's will be another magical day filled with good healthy food, good friends, love, art, my love.. I miss her but will see her very soon! Very soon!
Monday, December 8, 2008
It's difficult.. to speak about love
because sometimes we are afraid, well I am. I think she is too. She doesn't like when people ask how long it's been, or how we met. It's bad luck!
She wants us to be "complete"! I'm welling! She's so loving. I love what she does to me.. sometimes I get in my own way of coming to terms...sometimes I'm my own worse enemy.. but we'll muddle through I suppose. All I know is that I love what she does to me. I miss her and it's only been one day. I can't wait to see her again..to sleep with her.
So, I'm thanking the universe for my gift. Yes, Edy and Georgetta and Ezekiel and I'm sure Emma came through. We do get what we want and what we need.. if we ask. If we plan it. Personally, I begged and demanded!
I thank the universe for my love, loves and lover. I am grateful for my many blessings, gifts, and magical days, wonderful days. Now, I ask the universe to allow me to step out of the way of myself.. out of the way of my troubled, abused past into the present...into me, into her, into us.
Complete! I'll try very hard. Please help me. Please be there for me. Please help me to speak correctly and pronounce correctly and think before I speak. Please hold my eagerness, impatience, my laser temper. Please give me that sense of calm and cool and brilliance and eloquent speech, thoughts and vocabulary. And youthfulness, agility, flexibly, power, strength, intelligent, quickness of wit and pace. Help me impress her and myself. I've learned from the past. help me put it into practice.
And remember, I'm under 40! And thanks for that! I'm healthy, wealthy and wise..just as intended for this journey... and youthful! And brilliant! And full of energy! Loved and loving. And please keep all my loves healthy, wealthy and wise. I can't imagine my life without them. Thanks. And please take care of Emma! She's the best! I miss her! I always had time and energy and love for Emma! My protector.. my guard dog spirit!
She wants us to be "complete"! I'm welling! She's so loving. I love what she does to me.. sometimes I get in my own way of coming to terms...sometimes I'm my own worse enemy.. but we'll muddle through I suppose. All I know is that I love what she does to me. I miss her and it's only been one day. I can't wait to see her again..to sleep with her.
So, I'm thanking the universe for my gift. Yes, Edy and Georgetta and Ezekiel and I'm sure Emma came through. We do get what we want and what we need.. if we ask. If we plan it. Personally, I begged and demanded!
I thank the universe for my love, loves and lover. I am grateful for my many blessings, gifts, and magical days, wonderful days. Now, I ask the universe to allow me to step out of the way of myself.. out of the way of my troubled, abused past into the present...into me, into her, into us.
Complete! I'll try very hard. Please help me. Please be there for me. Please help me to speak correctly and pronounce correctly and think before I speak. Please hold my eagerness, impatience, my laser temper. Please give me that sense of calm and cool and brilliance and eloquent speech, thoughts and vocabulary. And youthfulness, agility, flexibly, power, strength, intelligent, quickness of wit and pace. Help me impress her and myself. I've learned from the past. help me put it into practice.
And remember, I'm under 40! And thanks for that! I'm healthy, wealthy and wise..just as intended for this journey... and youthful! And brilliant! And full of energy! Loved and loving. And please keep all my loves healthy, wealthy and wise. I can't imagine my life without them. Thanks. And please take care of Emma! She's the best! I miss her! I always had time and energy and love for Emma! My protector.. my guard dog spirit!
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