It's October 4, 2008. Fall already! We've dated since around Pride. I love her! What not to love? She's sweet, easy going, happy, good spirited, friendly. And she doesn't nit pick me.
I was hung over this morning and didn't go along to the Route Celebration. They had fun! She sait it was warm. I was zapped of energy probably because I ran 12 miles yesterday, was probably dehydrated and tried to drink two bottles of wine myself, I think! I'm better now. I wasted a whole day! I've learned my lesson - I think!
Water - it's the best drink! Water and less food - being hungry keeps us young? Yes, I heard that on the discovery channel. So, you know it's correct!
I'm done now. I am feeling better emotionally. All that wine may be emotionally, teary eyed and foolish in public! Did I mention also depressed! Yes, I was depressed this morning and most of the day. The effects finally wore off or SAM-E finally kicked in. I feel more hopeful and happy and loved... she called me this evening. Sometimes I don't feel worth of love! Probably because it felt that I could not ever please at home when I was a kid. No hugs, no kisses, no encouragement, no signs of laugher or joy. They never seemed happy.
So, those are my demons of the past that I periodically struggle with. I'm embarrassed and ashamed. I think I should be stronger. Get over it!
Time for bed - not much sleep last night. She's tired too! I think we had four hours, 2 bottles, and little food!
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